Plateau

Plateau again...
And I did so good this week too! Ugh!

Still holding at the same weight - nothing lost, nothing gained...I hope this week is a better one!

I was thinking about addiction today, and how tortuous it must be for a real food addict to over come their addiction.  Don't get me wrong I do love food, but not to that level.  As hard as it is for me just to stay away from my 12 grain bread, I can't imagine someone who has never ate healthy, eats to comfort in large quantity's, and has a sincere addiction to food... My heart breaks for them.

And I have to remind myself how lucky I am that I love healthy foods, I remember one time in my life eating for comfort...

My lupus was really bad and I couldn't walk without falling flat on my face, because I couldn't cook, Tyler ordered pizza for us. I normally eat about 2 pieces if I am really hungry.  This night I ate my share, and was done..so I thought.

A while later when the pain started again, and I kept falling down trying to get ready for bed, Tyler put me back into bed and he went to get his usual "snack" while we watched TV.  I asked him to bring me another piece of pizza, he looked at me like I was crazy!  I then demanded it, he told me I didn't need it - I didn't care!! I was in pain, I was falling down and I wanted something to make me feel better!!! 

He did bring me the pizza (I am a beast when I get mad) and I ate every bit of it..I did realize at that moment what was going on...and that was the last time it ever happened.

Of course I will cook foods for comfort, cold day - warm potato soup and homemade rolls, Halloween I always make my chili, when we all have colds, chicken noodle soup and fresh rolls..etc.  And I don't think that is food addiction..just meals that fit with the day!

This week will be a 5 pound week, I can just feel it!

Skinny dreams to you!!