So who is starting it with me?? YES my husband Tyler got his shipment in of HCG today..he is also doing the injections with me, hoping to loose some extra poundage that he has put on the last year, from not working out on a regular basis...I wonder how "hormonal" he will get?? heheh!
He is much more of a carb lover than me, I expect his first weeks will be tougher on him than me, (at least I hope they are) it will pay back for all the ice cream, dairy queen, cheeseburgers that he has ate in front of me!
Of course I will keep you updated on it!
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
The lightbulb went on..
The last few weeks have been tough on me diet wise. I had been on the same plateau for about 2 weeks, and not one ounce was budging! So I started to be very critical of my eating - I started cutting back the calories even more - skipping the protein, not having a fruit with my lunch or dinner..smaller amounts of protein. Didn't work..still didn't even loose an ounce! I upped my water intake - I did pee a lot more, but didn't loose anything!!
Finally I had had it - yes to HELL with the diet I was thinking - I was mad, that I couldn't loose anymore than the 35 that I had lost!! So I started to cheat - I ate a HUGE salad, with dressing last week, and a larger than normal dinner. The next morning, I weighed 2 pounds less..WHAT? How does that happen? Puzzled, that day, Tyler and I ate lunch out..and my rebellion of not loosing, I had a small cheese burger AND fries...the next day, I stepped onto the scale to see how much damage I had done, and I lost another pound!
So by this time I am confused, elated, and annoyed... I decided to ask my "pro" hubby what the deal was..
He simply replied, "well honey, if you would of asked earlier I would of explained it to you"..."Explain what?" I asked, "well your body was going into starvation mode, you were not getting enough calories, and it got us to the 500 you were eating. That is what put you on that plateau. Now that you have increased your calories dramatically, it signals to your now healthier hypothalamus to BURN those off, and you loose more weight."
OK so in lamans terms - body was starving from being on the diet for 4 months - it accepted the 500 calories and would not burn any of them. Even though I was never hungry, my body was. I increased the calories, and it triggered my brain to BURN those, extra calories, thus loosing weight and breaking the plateau.
In serious weight training, they do a Hi-Low calorie diet - its where you eat very high calories for a few days and then BOOM hit it with a few low calorie days - it helps get that last few pounds of stubborn fat off. It tricks the body. So basically that is what I did to my body...and started loosing again.
Now that I have been eating more normally such as whole grains, diet soda, potatoes, and some (not too much) refined sugar, my body has been burning it - which is what a healthy hypothalamus does.
I will be going back to the low calorie diet tomorrow to get it burning at a much higher rate, and see how much I will loose in the next week.
I really loved the wheat bread this past week..hehe, its the simple things that make me smile!
Finally I had had it - yes to HELL with the diet I was thinking - I was mad, that I couldn't loose anymore than the 35 that I had lost!! So I started to cheat - I ate a HUGE salad, with dressing last week, and a larger than normal dinner. The next morning, I weighed 2 pounds less..WHAT? How does that happen? Puzzled, that day, Tyler and I ate lunch out..and my rebellion of not loosing, I had a small cheese burger AND fries...the next day, I stepped onto the scale to see how much damage I had done, and I lost another pound!
So by this time I am confused, elated, and annoyed... I decided to ask my "pro" hubby what the deal was..
He simply replied, "well honey, if you would of asked earlier I would of explained it to you"..."Explain what?" I asked, "well your body was going into starvation mode, you were not getting enough calories, and it got us to the 500 you were eating. That is what put you on that plateau. Now that you have increased your calories dramatically, it signals to your now healthier hypothalamus to BURN those off, and you loose more weight."
OK so in lamans terms - body was starving from being on the diet for 4 months - it accepted the 500 calories and would not burn any of them. Even though I was never hungry, my body was. I increased the calories, and it triggered my brain to BURN those, extra calories, thus loosing weight and breaking the plateau.
In serious weight training, they do a Hi-Low calorie diet - its where you eat very high calories for a few days and then BOOM hit it with a few low calorie days - it helps get that last few pounds of stubborn fat off. It tricks the body. So basically that is what I did to my body...and started loosing again.
Now that I have been eating more normally such as whole grains, diet soda, potatoes, and some (not too much) refined sugar, my body has been burning it - which is what a healthy hypothalamus does.
I will be going back to the low calorie diet tomorrow to get it burning at a much higher rate, and see how much I will loose in the next week.
I really loved the wheat bread this past week..hehe, its the simple things that make me smile!
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Day of loss..
I lost 2 friends today, yes it was a sad day..
The first, I have known since I was a baby - I think she new me first as she was always much older than me, my oldest sister (48) went to school with her daughter. She was the music conductor in my Sunday school class, she was amazing with children! I got to enjoy her as a child, as a adult when I worked with her in Sunday school and visited her on a monthly basis, and as a mother. My oldest child, Zach would love to escape from the pew we were sitting at and head for the podium - he was quick for being 2. I was slow at being 9 months pregnant chasing him. As she also conducted the music in the chapel, she was sitting up on the platform. She would lew Zach with candy from her purse to sit on her lap..otherwise he would bang on the piano during church! Jerry died of cancer today..and my prayers are with her family at this time. I am blessed to have so many memories of her!
The second, I got to know through a lupus support group online. It was hosted on the WebMd website. I met her 10 years ago when I was diagnosed and completely terrified of this thing called lupus. She made me laugh, with her quirky sense of humor, quickly helping me feel comfortable. We exchanged emails, and had long talks about Lupus and how it has changed our lives for the better and the worse. Heather was 35 and died from lupus. I am blessed to have know such a wonderful person.
Heaven is a much more lively place today with these two ladies!
The first, I have known since I was a baby - I think she new me first as she was always much older than me, my oldest sister (48) went to school with her daughter. She was the music conductor in my Sunday school class, she was amazing with children! I got to enjoy her as a child, as a adult when I worked with her in Sunday school and visited her on a monthly basis, and as a mother. My oldest child, Zach would love to escape from the pew we were sitting at and head for the podium - he was quick for being 2. I was slow at being 9 months pregnant chasing him. As she also conducted the music in the chapel, she was sitting up on the platform. She would lew Zach with candy from her purse to sit on her lap..otherwise he would bang on the piano during church! Jerry died of cancer today..and my prayers are with her family at this time. I am blessed to have so many memories of her!
The second, I got to know through a lupus support group online. It was hosted on the WebMd website. I met her 10 years ago when I was diagnosed and completely terrified of this thing called lupus. She made me laugh, with her quirky sense of humor, quickly helping me feel comfortable. We exchanged emails, and had long talks about Lupus and how it has changed our lives for the better and the worse. Heather was 35 and died from lupus. I am blessed to have know such a wonderful person.
Heaven is a much more lively place today with these two ladies!
STILL NO??
Yes that is what I asked the scale this morning, and yesterday, and the day before that! Whats the deal?
And no it didn't answer me!
Still holding at 35 pounds lost, and not a ounce more..lol I could do the "apples all day trick" but I don't want too!! lol So we wait..and maybe tomorrow all of my 5 pounds I wished to loose this week will be gone!
Oh and I am craving banana bread that I made for the family, I just want to take a mini loaf and take a bite out of it...with a BIG glass of milk! I think I will go to bed and dream about it!
And no it didn't answer me!
Still holding at 35 pounds lost, and not a ounce more..lol I could do the "apples all day trick" but I don't want too!! lol So we wait..and maybe tomorrow all of my 5 pounds I wished to loose this week will be gone!
Oh and I am craving banana bread that I made for the family, I just want to take a mini loaf and take a bite out of it...with a BIG glass of milk! I think I will go to bed and dream about it!
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Plateau
Plateau again...
And I did so good this week too! Ugh!
Still holding at the same weight - nothing lost, nothing gained...I hope this week is a better one!
I was thinking about addiction today, and how tortuous it must be for a real food addict to over come their addiction. Don't get me wrong I do love food, but not to that level. As hard as it is for me just to stay away from my 12 grain bread, I can't imagine someone who has never ate healthy, eats to comfort in large quantity's, and has a sincere addiction to food... My heart breaks for them.
And I have to remind myself how lucky I am that I love healthy foods, I remember one time in my life eating for comfort...
My lupus was really bad and I couldn't walk without falling flat on my face, because I couldn't cook, Tyler ordered pizza for us. I normally eat about 2 pieces if I am really hungry. This night I ate my share, and was done..so I thought.
A while later when the pain started again, and I kept falling down trying to get ready for bed, Tyler put me back into bed and he went to get his usual "snack" while we watched TV. I asked him to bring me another piece of pizza, he looked at me like I was crazy! I then demanded it, he told me I didn't need it - I didn't care!! I was in pain, I was falling down and I wanted something to make me feel better!!!
He did bring me the pizza (I am a beast when I get mad) and I ate every bit of it..I did realize at that moment what was going on...and that was the last time it ever happened.
Of course I will cook foods for comfort, cold day - warm potato soup and homemade rolls, Halloween I always make my chili, when we all have colds, chicken noodle soup and fresh rolls..etc. And I don't think that is food addiction..just meals that fit with the day!
This week will be a 5 pound week, I can just feel it!
Skinny dreams to you!!
And I did so good this week too! Ugh!
Still holding at the same weight - nothing lost, nothing gained...I hope this week is a better one!
I was thinking about addiction today, and how tortuous it must be for a real food addict to over come their addiction. Don't get me wrong I do love food, but not to that level. As hard as it is for me just to stay away from my 12 grain bread, I can't imagine someone who has never ate healthy, eats to comfort in large quantity's, and has a sincere addiction to food... My heart breaks for them.
And I have to remind myself how lucky I am that I love healthy foods, I remember one time in my life eating for comfort...
My lupus was really bad and I couldn't walk without falling flat on my face, because I couldn't cook, Tyler ordered pizza for us. I normally eat about 2 pieces if I am really hungry. This night I ate my share, and was done..so I thought.
A while later when the pain started again, and I kept falling down trying to get ready for bed, Tyler put me back into bed and he went to get his usual "snack" while we watched TV. I asked him to bring me another piece of pizza, he looked at me like I was crazy! I then demanded it, he told me I didn't need it - I didn't care!! I was in pain, I was falling down and I wanted something to make me feel better!!!
He did bring me the pizza (I am a beast when I get mad) and I ate every bit of it..I did realize at that moment what was going on...and that was the last time it ever happened.
Of course I will cook foods for comfort, cold day - warm potato soup and homemade rolls, Halloween I always make my chili, when we all have colds, chicken noodle soup and fresh rolls..etc. And I don't think that is food addiction..just meals that fit with the day!
This week will be a 5 pound week, I can just feel it!
Skinny dreams to you!!
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Pandora
Pandora link
There is the link for the official website for Pandora!
Also I love this store, because they offer finished bracelets, so I can get ideas from
Pandora Ideas and Charms
And my fat happy Buddha link
Buddha Boy
There is the link for the official website for Pandora!
Also I love this store, because they offer finished bracelets, so I can get ideas from
Pandora Ideas and Charms
And my fat happy Buddha link
Buddha Boy
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| My Queen Bee |
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| Finished Bracelet |
WHOOT WHOOT #35
35 pounds are officially GONE!
11.5 inches are officially GONE!
And yes I am so excited! The last few weeks seemed to drag on to get those few pounds off, to get to my first goal. I have been "tasting" everything, and I know that is why it took so long to get here! I would have a bite of the kids ice cream (they always offer you know) - a bite of a cookie - a bite of a cracker..etc.
Now I feel more motivated than ever - I love the fact I took off 7 years of weight in just a 3 months! It makes me just want ANOTHER salad that much more..lol
I get to buy a charm for my Pandora bracelet - if you don't know what Pandora bracelets I will post a link - they are high quality sliver or gold bracelets that these beautiful tiny hand crafted charms fit on. The average cost for one charm can range from 25.00 to 350.00. Finished bracelets cost anywhere from 1,500 on up.
So obviously I collect them slowly - I got one for my birthday, my starter charm from my momma, then my Kids bought me a "queen bee" for my second charm - this will be my 3 charm and I fell in love with the Fat Buddha!
I love Buddhas, I have 3 in my house and just adore them. And him being so fat, just made me smile!
I have been thinking about posting my before pics, but haven't had the guts to do this yet (As I am in a sports bra, partially hanging out! lol) And having another one taken in the same "gym" outfit...To me my fat has always embarrassed me-I was so skinny growing up, teenage years, I never weighed more than 120 pounds..And in my head I am still little like that, then I see that full length mirror in my closet - I see pictures of me (which I hardly EVER allow) and I ask myself, WHO is that fat chick? OMGosh, she needs to do something! lol
Finally I have done something...that works! So I will thing about the picture idea...some more..think I can minimize it?
11.5 inches are officially GONE!
And yes I am so excited! The last few weeks seemed to drag on to get those few pounds off, to get to my first goal. I have been "tasting" everything, and I know that is why it took so long to get here! I would have a bite of the kids ice cream (they always offer you know) - a bite of a cookie - a bite of a cracker..etc.
Now I feel more motivated than ever - I love the fact I took off 7 years of weight in just a 3 months! It makes me just want ANOTHER salad that much more..lol
I get to buy a charm for my Pandora bracelet - if you don't know what Pandora bracelets I will post a link - they are high quality sliver or gold bracelets that these beautiful tiny hand crafted charms fit on. The average cost for one charm can range from 25.00 to 350.00. Finished bracelets cost anywhere from 1,500 on up.
So obviously I collect them slowly - I got one for my birthday, my starter charm from my momma, then my Kids bought me a "queen bee" for my second charm - this will be my 3 charm and I fell in love with the Fat Buddha!
I love Buddhas, I have 3 in my house and just adore them. And him being so fat, just made me smile!
I have been thinking about posting my before pics, but haven't had the guts to do this yet (As I am in a sports bra, partially hanging out! lol) And having another one taken in the same "gym" outfit...To me my fat has always embarrassed me-I was so skinny growing up, teenage years, I never weighed more than 120 pounds..And in my head I am still little like that, then I see that full length mirror in my closet - I see pictures of me (which I hardly EVER allow) and I ask myself, WHO is that fat chick? OMGosh, she needs to do something! lol
Finally I have done something...that works! So I will thing about the picture idea...some more..think I can minimize it?
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Diet SIN!!!
It seems lately that I have just been obsessed with counting the pounds...I calculate how many weeks I have been on the diet (10) - loss to date 33 pounds, and how many more weeks it will take, and the average loss of each week, minus the PMS week, how much more I have to loose, and how long it will take if I drink more water...and ....and....and! lol UGGH!
It seems at times its all I think about! I guess that is good?? Obsessing over my goal? Yeah kinda!
This week so far I have lost 5 pounds...and that was just in one day! HA! Then good ole reliable Aunt flow stopped by...weight loss haulted...sugar cravings entered....and of course Madi had to make snickerdoodle cookies today..she brought me a bite - and then Tyler gave me a bite (I didn't tell him I already had one) LOL! And he won't know either (he never reads my blog!) Then a while later, the cramps started, and the cookie somehow entered into my mouth! A WHOLE ONE!
I sinned...is there a repentance for dieters? Some type of confessional box that I can sit my fat butt in and confess? Not that I know of...so I just told the world wide web..everyone....knows now that I have sinned and ate a very large soft and surgery cookie....I am trying to rationalize with myself, as worrying I don't have to weigh tomorrow, as its flow week - the craving made me do it - blah blah blah...I still feel guilty!
Now we move on right? I did manager to drink over 90 ounces of water today, that is always good! I feel ok, I have been having some issues with my lupus pain and the central air conditioning in the house..it really makes me hurt! Maybe that 33 pounds of fat was my insulation pre layer that I have lost, and my body is not acclimated to the new climate? LOL! So I have been going outside to sit in the heat for a bit, and my body litterly warms back up and I stop hurting for a bit..I hide in my office as the AC vent is closed in there, and take really hot showers before bed...I am hoping this goes away soon!
skinny dreams to you!
It seems at times its all I think about! I guess that is good?? Obsessing over my goal? Yeah kinda!
This week so far I have lost 5 pounds...and that was just in one day! HA! Then good ole reliable Aunt flow stopped by...weight loss haulted...sugar cravings entered....and of course Madi had to make snickerdoodle cookies today..she brought me a bite - and then Tyler gave me a bite (I didn't tell him I already had one) LOL! And he won't know either (he never reads my blog!) Then a while later, the cramps started, and the cookie somehow entered into my mouth! A WHOLE ONE!
I sinned...is there a repentance for dieters? Some type of confessional box that I can sit my fat butt in and confess? Not that I know of...so I just told the world wide web..everyone....knows now that I have sinned and ate a very large soft and surgery cookie....I am trying to rationalize with myself, as worrying I don't have to weigh tomorrow, as its flow week - the craving made me do it - blah blah blah...I still feel guilty!
Now we move on right? I did manager to drink over 90 ounces of water today, that is always good! I feel ok, I have been having some issues with my lupus pain and the central air conditioning in the house..it really makes me hurt! Maybe that 33 pounds of fat was my insulation pre layer that I have lost, and my body is not acclimated to the new climate? LOL! So I have been going outside to sit in the heat for a bit, and my body litterly warms back up and I stop hurting for a bit..I hide in my office as the AC vent is closed in there, and take really hot showers before bed...I am hoping this goes away soon!
skinny dreams to you!
Monday, August 9, 2010
To my friends who have started the HCG..
I have about 4 friends that have started the HCG diet with me..I wanted to give them a shout out and let them know I am so proud of you!
I know its really hard, especially if you have a family to cook for also - I wanted to give you some advice..
Get out all the junk out of the house-white bread, processed and boxed foods, sugar loaded foods and drinks. If your family is a "carb nut house" like mine is, I buy everything whole grain for them - Ritz crackers, gold fish, pasta, brown rice, and whole grain bread. Never let these things return to your home permanently again, you will go back to your old ways.
Now my family dosen't eat exactly as I do, but similar. We do lots of chicken breasts, lean beef (97% only) Lean cuts of steak (watch the marbling) and working on the seafood... I make big salads, and I don't add dressings to them - they can add their own, fresh fruit salads, steamed veggies, and for grains they are always whole. We use milk products very sparingly (as they are terrible for you anyway), and
everyone is still alive! lol
Madi does love to bake and that really is a test to me, in which I quite often fail, and sneak a bite or two or three. Which is a complete disaster to this diet. Not only does it work with the calories, but the hormone interacts with the chemicals in the foods, that is how it works so well.
I have found that if I don't drink at least 80 ounces of water a day, I don't loose anything...so its so important to keep that water in, its what flushes the fat out..flush flush flush...and let me know when you need more TP from Costco! ha!
Make sure you share your goals, so your accountable for them. You would not believe how many people of the last 12 years of my hubby's career as a personal trainer, would be gym experts and could very well workout on their own with great success, but because they lacked the "accountability" factor they would never do it on their own. And they would rather pay him $550.00 a month to keep them accountable!
Obviously, we did make a good living back then! lol
Treat yourself, I have one cheat meal every 10 pounds..just one meal that I am dying to have! It keeps me motivated to get to the next 10! Make bigger treats too - every 15 or 20 or 30 you can buy a new outfit, shoes, purse, spa day, or what ever your into. Me, I buy myself a charm for my Pandora bracelet..to remind me of all the hard work to get to my goals!
Love yourself...is the most important bit of advice I can give...be happy in your courage to beat the battle of the bulge, know you are learning how to eat for the rest of your life, know you are teaching your children about goals, and eating healthy!! Yeah for you!!!
Much Love to you!
I know its really hard, especially if you have a family to cook for also - I wanted to give you some advice..
Get out all the junk out of the house-white bread, processed and boxed foods, sugar loaded foods and drinks. If your family is a "carb nut house" like mine is, I buy everything whole grain for them - Ritz crackers, gold fish, pasta, brown rice, and whole grain bread. Never let these things return to your home permanently again, you will go back to your old ways.
Now my family dosen't eat exactly as I do, but similar. We do lots of chicken breasts, lean beef (97% only) Lean cuts of steak (watch the marbling) and working on the seafood... I make big salads, and I don't add dressings to them - they can add their own, fresh fruit salads, steamed veggies, and for grains they are always whole. We use milk products very sparingly (as they are terrible for you anyway), and
everyone is still alive! lol
Madi does love to bake and that really is a test to me, in which I quite often fail, and sneak a bite or two or three. Which is a complete disaster to this diet. Not only does it work with the calories, but the hormone interacts with the chemicals in the foods, that is how it works so well.
I have found that if I don't drink at least 80 ounces of water a day, I don't loose anything...so its so important to keep that water in, its what flushes the fat out..flush flush flush...and let me know when you need more TP from Costco! ha!
Make sure you share your goals, so your accountable for them. You would not believe how many people of the last 12 years of my hubby's career as a personal trainer, would be gym experts and could very well workout on their own with great success, but because they lacked the "accountability" factor they would never do it on their own. And they would rather pay him $550.00 a month to keep them accountable!
Obviously, we did make a good living back then! lol
Treat yourself, I have one cheat meal every 10 pounds..just one meal that I am dying to have! It keeps me motivated to get to the next 10! Make bigger treats too - every 15 or 20 or 30 you can buy a new outfit, shoes, purse, spa day, or what ever your into. Me, I buy myself a charm for my Pandora bracelet..to remind me of all the hard work to get to my goals!
Love yourself...is the most important bit of advice I can give...be happy in your courage to beat the battle of the bulge, know you are learning how to eat for the rest of your life, know you are teaching your children about goals, and eating healthy!! Yeah for you!!!
Much Love to you!
Starting over...
Well its been about 2 weeks that I had a break of the diet..I didn't want to, but as funds were tight at the end of the month, I ran out of HCG, protein, coconut oil, and food!
I ate pretty much normal, tried to keep my water up and ate OK..I didn't gain any weight which is good news, because that shows me that when I am finished, I will be able to maintain.
So I had to basically start all over again, I did gorge for 2 days (that was fun) and I gained only 1 pound during those two days. Now I am back on the shots, I bought 6 weeks this time, instead of 4 to keep me a little longer.
I did purchase a neat little thing at the clinic, its liquid steiva extract that is flavored in hazelnut! That is one of my most favorite flavors and I put it in my chocolate protein shake!
I started again on Saturday, and like always the first week is the hardest!
The strangest thing is that while off of the HCG my lupus became very active again..symptoms like joint pain, fatigue, headaches and muscle pain. Things that I haven't felt since before I started the diet.
Yes I was in more stress this time, but I really feel it had a lot to do with the way I was eating, Tyler thinks it was more of the hormone that is putting me into remission. Who knows? I wonder what will happen when I am all finished?
I ate pretty much normal, tried to keep my water up and ate OK..I didn't gain any weight which is good news, because that shows me that when I am finished, I will be able to maintain.
So I had to basically start all over again, I did gorge for 2 days (that was fun) and I gained only 1 pound during those two days. Now I am back on the shots, I bought 6 weeks this time, instead of 4 to keep me a little longer.
I did purchase a neat little thing at the clinic, its liquid steiva extract that is flavored in hazelnut! That is one of my most favorite flavors and I put it in my chocolate protein shake!
I started again on Saturday, and like always the first week is the hardest!
The strangest thing is that while off of the HCG my lupus became very active again..symptoms like joint pain, fatigue, headaches and muscle pain. Things that I haven't felt since before I started the diet.
Yes I was in more stress this time, but I really feel it had a lot to do with the way I was eating, Tyler thinks it was more of the hormone that is putting me into remission. Who knows? I wonder what will happen when I am all finished?
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Phhew long time!
Its been so long since I posted, you know how life gets so busy! We have been to concerts and birthdays the last 10 days. And let me tell you - I have sucked the diet up..lol I mean I was still loosing, but not that wonderful .5 to 1 pound a day.
But with time to be home and focus now I can start doing better.. I have lost 27 pounds to date. I hope to loose at least another 10 the next two weeks!
Today my older kids noticed that mom's boobs are going! YEAH I hate these things - I have a 38DDD that sits upon my chest. They are one thing that I will not miss, but sadly my husband will miss them...I think he will get over it!
I have been browsing for plastic surgeons in Seattle, I have decided to do a "mommy makeover" as they call them - they do a tummy tuck combined with a breast lift - reduction and a small implant to make them "up" again. Prices vary, and finding a skilled surgeon scares me. So if anyone has any knowledge of one - Even if its in Spokane, let me know! Tyler has one request that they will not be "crooked" when I have them redone! lol
I feel great - as usual. I could sure feel the difference in my body when I would just have a "bite" of this or that, the last 10 days. I had a piece of bday cake and I swear I had a sugar hangover the next day..headache and fatigue..it was NOT fun! But yes my homemade chocolate cake with Italian frosting WAS worth it!
Well its time to refill that water bottle..yet again
But with time to be home and focus now I can start doing better.. I have lost 27 pounds to date. I hope to loose at least another 10 the next two weeks!
Today my older kids noticed that mom's boobs are going! YEAH I hate these things - I have a 38DDD that sits upon my chest. They are one thing that I will not miss, but sadly my husband will miss them...I think he will get over it!
I have been browsing for plastic surgeons in Seattle, I have decided to do a "mommy makeover" as they call them - they do a tummy tuck combined with a breast lift - reduction and a small implant to make them "up" again. Prices vary, and finding a skilled surgeon scares me. So if anyone has any knowledge of one - Even if its in Spokane, let me know! Tyler has one request that they will not be "crooked" when I have them redone! lol
I feel great - as usual. I could sure feel the difference in my body when I would just have a "bite" of this or that, the last 10 days. I had a piece of bday cake and I swear I had a sugar hangover the next day..headache and fatigue..it was NOT fun! But yes my homemade chocolate cake with Italian frosting WAS worth it!
Well its time to refill that water bottle..yet again
Friday, July 9, 2010
FINALLY!
Last week, I didn't not loose a full pound - I think it was due to my lack of water intake since I was out in the garden, working and sweating it out. I hate hitting a plateau - but luckily yesterday I dropped 4 pounds in one day! To break the plateau, I increased my caloric intake, and cheated on Saturday night, and Sunday night. It confused my body (what she is taking in MORE? We better start burning those) - that is what my hypothalamus said..lol And it worked!~
24 Pounds are gone now..yeah me!
I am going to start walking a mile this weekend, as I can after the first month..my body has adjusted to the low calorie lifestyle, and it will hopefully burn more or at least tone me up!
Till later!
24 Pounds are gone now..yeah me!
I am going to start walking a mile this weekend, as I can after the first month..my body has adjusted to the low calorie lifestyle, and it will hopefully burn more or at least tone me up!
Till later!
Thursday, July 1, 2010
ONE MONTH!
WHOOHO! I am finished with my first month!
And it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be - I lost a total of 20 pounds this month and
I feel better than I have in years!
I was hoping to get to 30 lost this month, but as I have been in the garden sweating my fanny off, my water intake has been lacking - and I am holding on to the same weight for the last 3 days.
I hope to make it up this next month and loose more than 20 pounds. Still feeling great, energy is still high, and I am very happy about this months progress-I can't see a large difference yet, but Tyler can - he has the trained eye to see where I am making progress. (all those years personal training) I am going to start walking about 20 minutes a day, I have been in the gardens for about 6 hours a day for this last week, and that has wore me out.
On to the next goal!
And it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be - I lost a total of 20 pounds this month and
I feel better than I have in years!
I was hoping to get to 30 lost this month, but as I have been in the garden sweating my fanny off, my water intake has been lacking - and I am holding on to the same weight for the last 3 days.
I hope to make it up this next month and loose more than 20 pounds. Still feeling great, energy is still high, and I am very happy about this months progress-I can't see a large difference yet, but Tyler can - he has the trained eye to see where I am making progress. (all those years personal training) I am going to start walking about 20 minutes a day, I have been in the gardens for about 6 hours a day for this last week, and that has wore me out.
On to the next goal!
Friday, June 25, 2010
It was a good week!
I just love when I finish another week!
This week I lost about 3 pounds. My little poor me, eat my biscuit stunt did it in for me!
But let go and move on right?
I have been an angel this week, drank all my water, my green tea, lots of veggies and lean protein. I put myself back in Ketosis just one day after "the incident"! lol
So that means I am burning fat for energy and inches are going too! Yeah! I have had the tummy troubles again, so I don't know if its all the food that just flys out of me, or its my IBS (yes I have ANOTHER illness!). So I just took it easy today, and ate some veggie & beef soup for dinner - had all the approved veggies, but the salt content was a little high - hoping that I will at least retain something...I know TMI TMI..lol Your the one reading this right?? heheh!
I was thinking about the scale - I constantly run though my head how many I have left to loose..obsessed with counting the pounds away, I decided to just make 3 small goals of 30 pounds each. That would put me at my pre-baby weight for ALL 3 babies. Tyler thinks it might be too small, but I want to be small again, tiny like I was before..I loved taking up a half of a chair - or half of a movie seat..I don't care if I get ID'd cause I look like a little girl..I just want to be LITTLE!!!
So my total loss has been 17.5 pounds - more than half way to my first 30!! Now I am wondering what I shall treat myself with..not clothes as they won't fit in another month..Shoes? New designer bag? Makeup? a new charm for my Pandora bracelet? Umm this will require some thought! :)
Well I am off to rest - as my energy has been increasing, from the HCG and the diet, I have been doing more and more! Which my body likes to remind me I still have an some illnesses to contend with.
Let the weekend begin!
This week I lost about 3 pounds. My little poor me, eat my biscuit stunt did it in for me!
But let go and move on right?
I have been an angel this week, drank all my water, my green tea, lots of veggies and lean protein. I put myself back in Ketosis just one day after "the incident"! lol
So that means I am burning fat for energy and inches are going too! Yeah! I have had the tummy troubles again, so I don't know if its all the food that just flys out of me, or its my IBS (yes I have ANOTHER illness!). So I just took it easy today, and ate some veggie & beef soup for dinner - had all the approved veggies, but the salt content was a little high - hoping that I will at least retain something...I know TMI TMI..lol Your the one reading this right?? heheh!
I was thinking about the scale - I constantly run though my head how many I have left to loose..obsessed with counting the pounds away, I decided to just make 3 small goals of 30 pounds each. That would put me at my pre-baby weight for ALL 3 babies. Tyler thinks it might be too small, but I want to be small again, tiny like I was before..I loved taking up a half of a chair - or half of a movie seat..I don't care if I get ID'd cause I look like a little girl..I just want to be LITTLE!!!
So my total loss has been 17.5 pounds - more than half way to my first 30!! Now I am wondering what I shall treat myself with..not clothes as they won't fit in another month..Shoes? New designer bag? Makeup? a new charm for my Pandora bracelet? Umm this will require some thought! :)
Well I am off to rest - as my energy has been increasing, from the HCG and the diet, I have been doing more and more! Which my body likes to remind me I still have an some illnesses to contend with.
Let the weekend begin!
Monday, June 21, 2010
What a weekend!
Ohhh man! What a weekend, filled with food, fun and of course exhaustion!
I learned a few things this past weekend - period cravings are horrible to diet with - drinking 80+ ounces of water every day while on your period makes you even feel more bloated - and changing a tampon every hour because of the frequent bathroom trips - really weighs on your tampon budget! lol
OK that might of been TMI for some..but I hope you got a laugh - because, I was like COME ON!
Second - You tend to get more hungrier the more exhausted you get..I don't know if this is a fact, but it was a fact for me this weekend! I had 5 kids home last week (an extra two from my best friend) - I did a full day of garden work (for fathers day), then Zach, my oldest, had a high school party of about 20 kids, filled with chips and salsa (my fav) 8 pizzas smelling up my house, smores, ice pops, and temptation! Yes I did take a chip or two - it almost killed me not too..lol
10 of those kids spent the night - boys of course - so I decided to make a big Manly breakfast - my famous fluffy 4 inch tall biscuits, and sausage gravy...Trust me its to die for! And its THE favorite breakfast of mine!
That Saturday, after the boys left, we went to the aquatic center with the 5 kids and my best friend...I packed my salad, chicken and an apple...drank my water and sat out in the sun.
If you know a little about Lupus, the sun is a big big no no..I am extremely sun sensitive - even though I had 70+ sunblock on, I still got a little pink. Along with the sensitive skin, you also can get joint pain and exhaustion...I got the exhaustion part on Sunday. I don't do the aquatic center very often because of those reasons. That night, I went to dinner with my friend, I had a large steak salad, lots of permitted goodies inside..I then forgot to ask for the dressing on the side (luckily it was a vinaigrette)..It was so big I just ate the top layers - and oh the toasted garlic sourdough...yeah that too! Luckily at the movies she didn't get anything so I stayed away too!
Sunday was Father's day, I was a pretty good girl, because of the exhaustion I had no appetite, blueberry french toast was made with sausage, topped with fresh blueberries and whipped creme. After breakfast, I went to bed and slept for about 3 hours. I made spaghetti for dinner, which I had just the sauce, and a salad.
Because I was sleeping on Sunday so much, I didn't get my water intake in..
Monday - was a terrible diet day - we now have exhaustion permanently set in, a messy house from company, and my two big kid helpers are at camp, and I get a call from my sister to start planning my grandmothers funeral - she is 99 and starting to fade...emotions hit and the rest of the day went down the diet toilet!
The peach pie I bought Tyler from the farmers market for Father's day, got some bites taken out of it - I nibbled on a biscuit ..nibbled more, and then just ate the rest of the damn thing... I did eat a good lunch - leftovers from last night...but when dinner hit, and more time on the phone with my mom about my Nanna, I threw my towel in for tonight..I ate another damn biscuit with the sausage gravy, I ate two eggs (approved) and drank a glass of apple juice....BOOOOOOM That was a hard fall!
I see how my emotions also weigh in on my eating - I wanted comfort food...a salad is not full of comfort, when you are planning your Nanna's funeral, a warm biscuit is...
I heated it up, told my family I didn't want to hear it, and they can kiss my large butt..they all snickered..
Mom bombed after just over 3 weeks...sigh...
On the plus side..yes I am telling myself there is one, I am still in Ketoisis, on the far end of the scale, this will bring me down a bit, and I will probably gain after this weekend (I DID not get on the scale this am) and I will start over tomorrow...I have lost officially 16 pounds so far...so that is good..right?
Now its off to end the day of summer solstice...LONGEST DIET DAY EVER..lol with a bubble bath - and probably a piece of that STUPID pie..so I can just get over it and move on!
I learned a few things this past weekend - period cravings are horrible to diet with - drinking 80+ ounces of water every day while on your period makes you even feel more bloated - and changing a tampon every hour because of the frequent bathroom trips - really weighs on your tampon budget! lol
OK that might of been TMI for some..but I hope you got a laugh - because, I was like COME ON!
Second - You tend to get more hungrier the more exhausted you get..I don't know if this is a fact, but it was a fact for me this weekend! I had 5 kids home last week (an extra two from my best friend) - I did a full day of garden work (for fathers day), then Zach, my oldest, had a high school party of about 20 kids, filled with chips and salsa (my fav) 8 pizzas smelling up my house, smores, ice pops, and temptation! Yes I did take a chip or two - it almost killed me not too..lol
10 of those kids spent the night - boys of course - so I decided to make a big Manly breakfast - my famous fluffy 4 inch tall biscuits, and sausage gravy...Trust me its to die for! And its THE favorite breakfast of mine!
That Saturday, after the boys left, we went to the aquatic center with the 5 kids and my best friend...I packed my salad, chicken and an apple...drank my water and sat out in the sun.
If you know a little about Lupus, the sun is a big big no no..I am extremely sun sensitive - even though I had 70+ sunblock on, I still got a little pink. Along with the sensitive skin, you also can get joint pain and exhaustion...I got the exhaustion part on Sunday. I don't do the aquatic center very often because of those reasons. That night, I went to dinner with my friend, I had a large steak salad, lots of permitted goodies inside..I then forgot to ask for the dressing on the side (luckily it was a vinaigrette)..It was so big I just ate the top layers - and oh the toasted garlic sourdough...yeah that too! Luckily at the movies she didn't get anything so I stayed away too!
Sunday was Father's day, I was a pretty good girl, because of the exhaustion I had no appetite, blueberry french toast was made with sausage, topped with fresh blueberries and whipped creme. After breakfast, I went to bed and slept for about 3 hours. I made spaghetti for dinner, which I had just the sauce, and a salad.
Because I was sleeping on Sunday so much, I didn't get my water intake in..
Monday - was a terrible diet day - we now have exhaustion permanently set in, a messy house from company, and my two big kid helpers are at camp, and I get a call from my sister to start planning my grandmothers funeral - she is 99 and starting to fade...emotions hit and the rest of the day went down the diet toilet!
The peach pie I bought Tyler from the farmers market for Father's day, got some bites taken out of it - I nibbled on a biscuit ..nibbled more, and then just ate the rest of the damn thing... I did eat a good lunch - leftovers from last night...but when dinner hit, and more time on the phone with my mom about my Nanna, I threw my towel in for tonight..I ate another damn biscuit with the sausage gravy, I ate two eggs (approved) and drank a glass of apple juice....BOOOOOOM That was a hard fall!
I see how my emotions also weigh in on my eating - I wanted comfort food...a salad is not full of comfort, when you are planning your Nanna's funeral, a warm biscuit is...
I heated it up, told my family I didn't want to hear it, and they can kiss my large butt..they all snickered..
Mom bombed after just over 3 weeks...sigh...
On the plus side..yes I am telling myself there is one, I am still in Ketoisis, on the far end of the scale, this will bring me down a bit, and I will probably gain after this weekend (I DID not get on the scale this am) and I will start over tomorrow...I have lost officially 16 pounds so far...so that is good..right?
Now its off to end the day of summer solstice...LONGEST DIET DAY EVER..lol with a bubble bath - and probably a piece of that STUPID pie..so I can just get over it and move on!
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Day 19
Well I am happy to say that my sugar cravings were in fact a warning sign that Aunt Flow was on her way to visit! Phhhew, I thought for a bit that I was loosing my willpower!
Because my my "visitor" I cannot take the HCG injection for the first two days - due to the high surge in hormones. I did loose 4 ounces this am - which any loss is still a loss!
I had a dream last night that I was in Tahiti, trying to find a scale...hahahha! I think I have become a tad bit obsessed with the scale lately..but its all good - and hopefully when I am finished, I will maintain that obsession and never get over 5 pounds of my goal weight!
Because my my "visitor" I cannot take the HCG injection for the first two days - due to the high surge in hormones. I did loose 4 ounces this am - which any loss is still a loss!
I had a dream last night that I was in Tahiti, trying to find a scale...hahahha! I think I have become a tad bit obsessed with the scale lately..but its all good - and hopefully when I am finished, I will maintain that obsession and never get over 5 pounds of my goal weight!
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
day 18
day 18 was a hard day....
NEVER run out of food..lol I was starving today, as I finally was out of all my salad stuff, veggies, fruits, etc. I am almost even out of all my protein for my morning shake!
Going to the store finally tomorrow..honestly I thought I had more in there than what there was! Who else is eating my food?
For lunch I had the rest of my grilled chicken, and sliced cucumbers and carrots - water to drink - no fruit was in stock...
Dinner I was out of chicken and beef, so I had a small portion of pork roast, and some steamed carrots..and ate a banana (too much sugars for that)
I did a horrid thing today - I dipped my finger in frosting of the cake the kids made..yes it was heavenly! I normally don't crave sweets...it has to be PMS..can I just blame it on that?
BUT on the great side I did wake up 2.5 pounds lighter which brings our total to 13 pounds!
I am wondering if I will even loose any today from the mess I made of it...OK trying not to be too hard on myself, but I am working so hard keeping myself motivated that this was a little road block!
Till tomorrow!
NEVER run out of food..lol I was starving today, as I finally was out of all my salad stuff, veggies, fruits, etc. I am almost even out of all my protein for my morning shake!
Going to the store finally tomorrow..honestly I thought I had more in there than what there was! Who else is eating my food?
For lunch I had the rest of my grilled chicken, and sliced cucumbers and carrots - water to drink - no fruit was in stock...
Dinner I was out of chicken and beef, so I had a small portion of pork roast, and some steamed carrots..and ate a banana (too much sugars for that)
I did a horrid thing today - I dipped my finger in frosting of the cake the kids made..yes it was heavenly! I normally don't crave sweets...it has to be PMS..can I just blame it on that?
BUT on the great side I did wake up 2.5 pounds lighter which brings our total to 13 pounds!
I am wondering if I will even loose any today from the mess I made of it...OK trying not to be too hard on myself, but I am working so hard keeping myself motivated that this was a little road block!
Till tomorrow!
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Ending week 2
Well today ended week two! Yahoo! I have lost a total of 11.5 pounds!
Its getting easier to eat what I have to eat - craving are less now, and I feel really good! My energy
is up, my chest is lighter ( I swear that 10 pounds was in my chest!) and I just feel lighter.
To celebrate my 10 pounds my dear husband let me have one cheat meal. Cheat meals are not part of the
HCG diet, but my all knowing husband knew it would be good for me.
My favorite food in the world is real Mexican - so Tyler took me to my favorite place, you know the tiny horribly decorated and furnished places? They always have the best food ya know.
I ate chicken fajitas - chips and salsa - rice and beans - sour creme and guaq - a virgin margarita - and finished it off with some fried ice cream!
My choices was not as bad as they could be - chips and white tortillas are no no's - dairy and guaq - rice and beans (starches) and sugar in the ice cream and drink. I didn't feel too sinful that I cheated - and I tried to choose a main course that was on the diet (chicken, onions and peppers) so I wouldn't do too much damage.
Of course I enjoyed every single bite - it gave me more motivation to get another 10 pounds off, to have another cheat meal. I went up 2 pounds from that meal, but have quickly lost it already.
My ketones this am were at perfect levels and not over the top like they have been, the cheat meal helped lower them.
I probably would of lost more this weekend, if I had not cheated - but it was good for my motivation, to keep on going for the next 10 pounds - I am going to be on this diet for about the entire summer, and I want to stay motivated.
My lupus is biting at my heels now...I see evidence that my cognitive functions are going down - I leaned that 60% of all lupus patients have some brain issues at least some time in their illness. I guess this is my time. My memory stinks, thought process is so slow, understanding even the simplest things just boggle my mind. I am hoping that this will soon pass, because I simply refuse to go on predisone ever again!!
Well I think it will be a bit harder with the kids around, and the goodies I will be baking now that summer is here...I just keep praying for strength, and a distaste for anything good! hahha!!
Its getting easier to eat what I have to eat - craving are less now, and I feel really good! My energy
is up, my chest is lighter ( I swear that 10 pounds was in my chest!) and I just feel lighter.
To celebrate my 10 pounds my dear husband let me have one cheat meal. Cheat meals are not part of the
HCG diet, but my all knowing husband knew it would be good for me.
My favorite food in the world is real Mexican - so Tyler took me to my favorite place, you know the tiny horribly decorated and furnished places? They always have the best food ya know.
I ate chicken fajitas - chips and salsa - rice and beans - sour creme and guaq - a virgin margarita - and finished it off with some fried ice cream!
My choices was not as bad as they could be - chips and white tortillas are no no's - dairy and guaq - rice and beans (starches) and sugar in the ice cream and drink. I didn't feel too sinful that I cheated - and I tried to choose a main course that was on the diet (chicken, onions and peppers) so I wouldn't do too much damage.
Of course I enjoyed every single bite - it gave me more motivation to get another 10 pounds off, to have another cheat meal. I went up 2 pounds from that meal, but have quickly lost it already.
My ketones this am were at perfect levels and not over the top like they have been, the cheat meal helped lower them.
I probably would of lost more this weekend, if I had not cheated - but it was good for my motivation, to keep on going for the next 10 pounds - I am going to be on this diet for about the entire summer, and I want to stay motivated.
My lupus is biting at my heels now...I see evidence that my cognitive functions are going down - I leaned that 60% of all lupus patients have some brain issues at least some time in their illness. I guess this is my time. My memory stinks, thought process is so slow, understanding even the simplest things just boggle my mind. I am hoping that this will soon pass, because I simply refuse to go on predisone ever again!!
Well I think it will be a bit harder with the kids around, and the goodies I will be baking now that summer is here...I just keep praying for strength, and a distaste for anything good! hahha!!
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Day 11 -
So the days are kinda running together, I feel like this is going so fast! And of course that is a great thing! I am now at 10.5 pounds lost. I just lost a .5 of a pound today - but feeling a little bloated (PMS??). So I am not too worried.
Today I went back for my 2 week appointment, I got my months supply of HCG and syringes - they have a cookbook for the diet, I was so excited!! I know its silly, but I have one cupboard in my kitchen dedicated to my cookbooks! I love to cook, and this gives me more ideas on how to use the foods I can eat in a variety of ways. I have to admit, field greens and chicken breast can only last so long! The dietitian was very happy to hear about my ketosis, she said some people dream about getting it that high..when I asked if It could get dangerous for me, she said "only when you run out of fat reserves" welllll that is not going to be happening anytime soon!
Tonight I got to enjoy a lean steak, with a nice dry rub on it. Steamed asparagus and a large salad! For my dessert it was an apple! To me that is not really diet food, and it tasted wonderful!
My energy is still high, I did have to nap a bit today, but only for about 30 minutes - while the dogs jumped on my head..normally its a 2 hour one, including trippy dreams and drool!
No side effects yet...feeling great, and so happy to found something that works for me!!
Yeah Me!
Today I went back for my 2 week appointment, I got my months supply of HCG and syringes - they have a cookbook for the diet, I was so excited!! I know its silly, but I have one cupboard in my kitchen dedicated to my cookbooks! I love to cook, and this gives me more ideas on how to use the foods I can eat in a variety of ways. I have to admit, field greens and chicken breast can only last so long! The dietitian was very happy to hear about my ketosis, she said some people dream about getting it that high..when I asked if It could get dangerous for me, she said "only when you run out of fat reserves" welllll that is not going to be happening anytime soon!
Tonight I got to enjoy a lean steak, with a nice dry rub on it. Steamed asparagus and a large salad! For my dessert it was an apple! To me that is not really diet food, and it tasted wonderful!
My energy is still high, I did have to nap a bit today, but only for about 30 minutes - while the dogs jumped on my head..normally its a 2 hour one, including trippy dreams and drool!
No side effects yet...feeling great, and so happy to found something that works for me!!
Yeah Me!
Sunday, June 6, 2010
What is Ketosis?
When I hit a plateau and I don't see any weight lost, I test for ketosis. I just test my urine first thing in the morning, on these test strips, and compare them to the chart. They tell me how much fat is being used for energy. Like I said, this week, I was way over limits - perfect ketosis is about 30ml, I was 180ml. I consumed more "healthy" calories, and dropped 2.5 pounds after I did so.
For the scientific explanation of what it is, just click right here!
For the scientific explanation of what it is, just click right here!
Week ONE DONE!
Phhhew, I am finished with the first week...I survived, I didn't starve, I didn't kill anyone and the fridge is still in one piece!
I lost a total of 7 pounds this week - on most diets that is about a 1 month loss! I feel good, still not hungry, no shakes, or side effects. I did hit a small plateau on Friday, so I tested for Ketosis (the bodies process of burning fat for energy) and I thought I would not be in Ketosis yet - well I was off the chart for having TOO much Ketosis. Tyler had me consume some more protein and veggies, but my tummy has shrank and it was really hard to get it down.
I even went to dinner this weekend, and did not have a problem - I did enjoy smelling everyone else's foods, and had a little "poor me" thoughts running through my head. But I quickly blocked them out, and told all the kids that "I made this choice, don't feel sorry for me".
I am hopeful for the next week to be easier - I am going shopping tomorrow, as I cannot eat any more field greens..lol so its off to experiment with some new lettuces, and instead of having chicken every day I am going to eat tiny round steaks.
Skinny is closer!
I lost a total of 7 pounds this week - on most diets that is about a 1 month loss! I feel good, still not hungry, no shakes, or side effects. I did hit a small plateau on Friday, so I tested for Ketosis (the bodies process of burning fat for energy) and I thought I would not be in Ketosis yet - well I was off the chart for having TOO much Ketosis. Tyler had me consume some more protein and veggies, but my tummy has shrank and it was really hard to get it down.
I even went to dinner this weekend, and did not have a problem - I did enjoy smelling everyone else's foods, and had a little "poor me" thoughts running through my head. But I quickly blocked them out, and told all the kids that "I made this choice, don't feel sorry for me".
I am hopeful for the next week to be easier - I am going shopping tomorrow, as I cannot eat any more field greens..lol so its off to experiment with some new lettuces, and instead of having chicken every day I am going to eat tiny round steaks.
Skinny is closer!
Friday, June 4, 2010
Day 5
Well this am I woke excited to see if I had lost another 2 pounds..and what do I see? I gained a half of pound..AHHG! OK so I know this is normal, and to be expected - but I didn't want to expect it!
I was pretty tired today, I have been really busy the last 2 days, and I think it just wore me down. Lupus has a way of doing that. SO today I rested, I did drink my shake (one scoop) and went back to bed. When I woke it was lunch time already, and I started on the water binge. Lunch - chicken and field greens (I bet I am going to be sick of field greens really quick!) and an apple.
water water water this afternoon. For dinner, I decided to have chicken with some sliced cucumber and celery sticks. But before I could eat, Tyler my dear and supportive husband, picked up "Woodies" for dinner - those that live in Moses Lake, know this little sinful hamburger stand - old fashioned burgers, fries and everything sinful!
They came in to eat it...and the smell AHHHH the smell-for a split second I wanted to KILL HIM!! I came into my office and hid from the smells! I could not bear to watch him eat one of my favorite foods! Then of course they leave, and their are left over fries, with fresh fry sauce sitting on the counter staring at me!
I looked at it, looked inside it and broke the connection - walk away I was telling my self, its not worth it!
AHHGGGGGG How come food has such control over us, I am glad I didn't have a fry- but for a moment I wanted the whole bag full!
I wanted to cheat-BUT I didn't - instead I added a 1/2 tsp of horrid ranch to my plate and I could barely touch the drop with my veggies, and taste something sinful! lol
Right now I don't feel guilty for that 1/2 tsp. of ranch..I might tomorrow when I don't loose a pound!
Grapefruit segments was my "dessert"...and that always helps my sweet craving!
This weekend will be my first weekend with everyone home, while on the diet - I pray I make it through!!
I was pretty tired today, I have been really busy the last 2 days, and I think it just wore me down. Lupus has a way of doing that. SO today I rested, I did drink my shake (one scoop) and went back to bed. When I woke it was lunch time already, and I started on the water binge. Lunch - chicken and field greens (I bet I am going to be sick of field greens really quick!) and an apple.
water water water this afternoon. For dinner, I decided to have chicken with some sliced cucumber and celery sticks. But before I could eat, Tyler my dear and supportive husband, picked up "Woodies" for dinner - those that live in Moses Lake, know this little sinful hamburger stand - old fashioned burgers, fries and everything sinful!
They came in to eat it...and the smell AHHHH the smell-for a split second I wanted to KILL HIM!! I came into my office and hid from the smells! I could not bear to watch him eat one of my favorite foods! Then of course they leave, and their are left over fries, with fresh fry sauce sitting on the counter staring at me!
I looked at it, looked inside it and broke the connection - walk away I was telling my self, its not worth it!
AHHGGGGGG How come food has such control over us, I am glad I didn't have a fry- but for a moment I wanted the whole bag full!
I wanted to cheat-BUT I didn't - instead I added a 1/2 tsp of horrid ranch to my plate and I could barely touch the drop with my veggies, and taste something sinful! lol
Right now I don't feel guilty for that 1/2 tsp. of ranch..I might tomorrow when I don't loose a pound!
Grapefruit segments was my "dessert"...and that always helps my sweet craving!
This weekend will be my first weekend with everyone home, while on the diet - I pray I make it through!!
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Day 3 and Good Morning day 4!
YEAH I lost another 2 pounds!! I felt wonderful, I actually had some energy - I don't know if its from the HCG - all the water - or the perfect eating...but I felt just about what "healthy" people feel like! I ate great, and didn't have a problem with hunger, I do get hungry of course but only when its time to eat. And all the food is filling, plus the water water water!
I did have a tummy issue, I wondered if it is because I am drinking so much water-seems my digestive system is a water slide too, of course coming when I least expect it...and always to my families amusement!
This morning I woke to find I had lost another 2 pounds...whoah! I asked Tyler if he thought it was way to fast, he said no - the hormones are kicking in and doing their job. I remember taking kick boxing lessons daily and I didn't loose not one pound!!! And I was near death after every extreme workout! This just totally blowes my mind! Well off to make a protein shake! Till later!
I did have a tummy issue, I wondered if it is because I am drinking so much water-seems my digestive system is a water slide too, of course coming when I least expect it...and always to my families amusement!
This morning I woke to find I had lost another 2 pounds...whoah! I asked Tyler if he thought it was way to fast, he said no - the hormones are kicking in and doing their job. I remember taking kick boxing lessons daily and I didn't loose not one pound!!! And I was near death after every extreme workout! This just totally blowes my mind! Well off to make a protein shake! Till later!
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Day 2 on VLC - Day 4 total!
Did much better today - I was motivated more because I lost my first POUND! Yeah me!!
Today I added another scoop of protein to my breakfast shake (allowed 4 scoops per day)
and it kept me full longer.
Lunch was the same salad as yesterday - Dinner was ate on the go, I live in my car hauling
kids around - a grilled chicken breast from KFC - and when I got home I ate grapefruit, and I was
full.
It seems the more water I drink the more I want..weird! I think I made about a dozen trips to the bathroom from all the water! My lupus seems quiet today, some aches and pains, but nothing major! I worry about what the extra hormones will do, lupus has been found to be attributed to hormones-so that is what is always in the back of my mind. I don't know if I could do this diet if I got really sick again, so I just keep my fat sausage fingers crossed...for now!
Today I added another scoop of protein to my breakfast shake (allowed 4 scoops per day)
and it kept me full longer.
Lunch was the same salad as yesterday - Dinner was ate on the go, I live in my car hauling
kids around - a grilled chicken breast from KFC - and when I got home I ate grapefruit, and I was
full.
It seems the more water I drink the more I want..weird! I think I made about a dozen trips to the bathroom from all the water! My lupus seems quiet today, some aches and pains, but nothing major! I worry about what the extra hormones will do, lupus has been found to be attributed to hormones-so that is what is always in the back of my mind. I don't know if I could do this diet if I got really sick again, so I just keep my fat sausage fingers crossed...for now!
Monday, May 31, 2010
DAY 3 - Start of the VLC
Day 3 - Tyler stabbed a shot in me this morning, the last two mornings he has been gentle, and I didn't even feel it..I think he was trying to be funny today!
Breakfast, I had my protein shake, with water and ice - and a teaspoon of the MTC oil. MTC oil is a special formulated oil that carries antioxidants, and other good for you stuff. The shake wasn't bad at all, and it filled me up. I am allowed to have this shake up to 4 times a day, to help keep me full and fueled!
Lunch, a half of a small chicken breast that I put Italian herbs on and grilled, a handful of field greens with radishes and cucumbers, a teaspoon of MTC oil and some more herbs, with a dash of cider vinegar as my dressing. And an apple for dessert. To drink I had the recommended green tea with no calories and of course -Water Water Water!
I felt full, no problems with hunger - worked out in the garden, and then my fatigue kicked in..My Lupus was letting me know that I was exhausted from a long weekend - so I took an hour snooze on the couch.
I should of had a protein shake this afternoon, but since I was snoozing, and the kids wanted to go to the movies, I skipped it.. I got a bottled water in the movie theater, and watched the popcorn go back and forth, Tyler was eating my favorite Reses pieces candies, and he was eating the Ice cream Dibs.. Such a bad bad man! I wanted the popcorn more than anything, and it did make me a little grumpy to see everyone enjoying it. But as I was sitting there, and so uncomfortable, because my chest is so heavy, that I can't breathe and sitting up really kills me, I remembered what I am doing this for..NOT to be miserable anymore! I got over the popcorn craving and just enjoyed the movie!
By the time I got home I was hungry, it was 6:30, and Tyler took his sweet time making the patties - I can have lean beef, any kind. So we had some ground round super lean burgers for dinner. Tyler made me a tiny patty, which I had cucumber slices and 2 celery sticks, and an apple while he was cooking. The onion buns he toasted smelled heavenly-but I sucked it up and ate all my food, and drank my water!
Yeah Day ONE IS DONE!
Breakfast, I had my protein shake, with water and ice - and a teaspoon of the MTC oil. MTC oil is a special formulated oil that carries antioxidants, and other good for you stuff. The shake wasn't bad at all, and it filled me up. I am allowed to have this shake up to 4 times a day, to help keep me full and fueled!
Lunch, a half of a small chicken breast that I put Italian herbs on and grilled, a handful of field greens with radishes and cucumbers, a teaspoon of MTC oil and some more herbs, with a dash of cider vinegar as my dressing. And an apple for dessert. To drink I had the recommended green tea with no calories and of course -Water Water Water!
I felt full, no problems with hunger - worked out in the garden, and then my fatigue kicked in..My Lupus was letting me know that I was exhausted from a long weekend - so I took an hour snooze on the couch.
I should of had a protein shake this afternoon, but since I was snoozing, and the kids wanted to go to the movies, I skipped it.. I got a bottled water in the movie theater, and watched the popcorn go back and forth, Tyler was eating my favorite Reses pieces candies, and he was eating the Ice cream Dibs.. Such a bad bad man! I wanted the popcorn more than anything, and it did make me a little grumpy to see everyone enjoying it. But as I was sitting there, and so uncomfortable, because my chest is so heavy, that I can't breathe and sitting up really kills me, I remembered what I am doing this for..NOT to be miserable anymore! I got over the popcorn craving and just enjoyed the movie!
By the time I got home I was hungry, it was 6:30, and Tyler took his sweet time making the patties - I can have lean beef, any kind. So we had some ground round super lean burgers for dinner. Tyler made me a tiny patty, which I had cucumber slices and 2 celery sticks, and an apple while he was cooking. The onion buns he toasted smelled heavenly-but I sucked it up and ate all my food, and drank my water!
Yeah Day ONE IS DONE!
Days 1 and 2
The first two days are easy - its called the gorging stage. You eat and eat and eat! These so far were perfect days! ha!
Day one we went to breakfast and I ate a huge meal, much larger than I normally would - I snacked all day on cheese and crackers, soda, and chocolate. For dinner I had a Wendy's cheeseburger, fries, frosty and a soda. This was a ton of food for me, but I really didn't eat enough like I should of.
Eating like this tricks your hypothalamus into thinking "great I have a million calories to burn I better get to work" and starts working overtime. When you start the VLC (very low calorie) stage, it continues to burn the same way - loosing weight even faster.
Day two, I did better, with a large breakfast, average lunch, and double helpings on a ham and scalloped potatoes dinner. Madi even made some cupcakes that I got to take a treat of with a large glass of milk!
I guess this is how people eat when they are trying to gain weight, boy what would that be like?
I just hope I ate enough, I have never been a big eater (only when I was expecting), and this stage was really hard for me, but in the next few months I bet I will miss it!
Day one we went to breakfast and I ate a huge meal, much larger than I normally would - I snacked all day on cheese and crackers, soda, and chocolate. For dinner I had a Wendy's cheeseburger, fries, frosty and a soda. This was a ton of food for me, but I really didn't eat enough like I should of.
Eating like this tricks your hypothalamus into thinking "great I have a million calories to burn I better get to work" and starts working overtime. When you start the VLC (very low calorie) stage, it continues to burn the same way - loosing weight even faster.
Day two, I did better, with a large breakfast, average lunch, and double helpings on a ham and scalloped potatoes dinner. Madi even made some cupcakes that I got to take a treat of with a large glass of milk!
I guess this is how people eat when they are trying to gain weight, boy what would that be like?
I just hope I ate enough, I have never been a big eater (only when I was expecting), and this stage was really hard for me, but in the next few months I bet I will miss it!
HCG Diet
What is the HCG diet? Well something that Tyler had heard about, and we both researched and found to be a fitting diet for me. Predisone has changed the way my body stores fat, that is one of its terrible side effects. The HCG hormone, changes that.
The exact diet website is found HERE - Yes the HCG hormone is the pregnancy hormone - yes the hormone is extracted from urine-one of the reasons its in shot form. I have a friend offer to sell me her urine during her pregnancy, for HALF PRICE! What a great laugh that was!
Beware of places selling "homoeopathic" HCG - in almost all cases its not the real deal - you will loose weight on it of course, with a 500 calorie diet, but it could be at a price to your health.
The exact diet website is found HERE - Yes the HCG hormone is the pregnancy hormone - yes the hormone is extracted from urine-one of the reasons its in shot form. I have a friend offer to sell me her urine during her pregnancy, for HALF PRICE! What a great laugh that was!
Beware of places selling "homoeopathic" HCG - in almost all cases its not the real deal - you will loose weight on it of course, with a 500 calorie diet, but it could be at a price to your health.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
A circle is a shape...
Yes I have said it many times, circles are round, and they are in shape; hence I am in shape! My talent to see the funny in the last ten years litterly has saved me from myself. I never really had a weight problem, as a kid, I was average weight - in high school I went through a time where I wanted to be skinner, as my mom put me on the "diet center" diet and lost 15 pounds to be about 110 pounds. I suffered from depression in high school and Prozac kept me pretty little. Which was good being I am only 5 feet tall! I never had a problem eating or exercising, my father was an exercise fanatic and we had a basement full of equipment.
Babies came at age 19 and 21 - with bed rest and some complications - being pregnant, I really ate whatever I wanted...Mint chocolate chip ice cream was a staple! I went from about 125 to around 205 with delivery of each baby. After the second, I was 22 and I wanted to loose all the baby weight- Tyler my dear husband who was a gym guru, took the time to really teach me to work out - my doctor started me on the drug Fastin, and over a year later I was back down to about 135. I maintained it well, for about 6 months, until I became sick. Tests were started, doctors consulted and lots of medications were prescribed. They assumed I had a auto-immune type illness, and there is one drug that treats almost all auto-immune illnesses, its called Predinsone. Follow this link to know what Prednisone is - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Prednisone
A year later the predinsone had put significant weight gain on me, I remember crying in the doctors office, as they still were just "guessing" my illness and I had gained about 40 pounds due to the medications. I told her how hard I had worked to get all the baby weight off, and now I was putting it back on overnight! She looked at me and said "Well you be heavy and get this under control, or thin and dead." I chose the "fat" option - I was 25 when I was diagnosed with Lupus. I remained on Predinsone every few months to control the worst of my symptoms. Gaining 10 pounds per dose..and never loosing it either.
To loose the weight, I have tried, extreme workouts - low calorie diets - vegan lifestyle - veggie fasts - fruit diets - protein powders - etc. Tyler as a previous gym owner and personal trainer for over 10 years - knew of my struggle. He would give me solstice in saying "not too many people have excuses for their weight that are valiable". Sadly I gave up trying to control my weight and my lupus. Doctors told me it was a vicious cycle, and I would probably be heavy for the rest of my life.
Ignorance is bliss..and the weight went ignored.
I am now 34, I had my last dose of Predisone in February of 2010. Here comes another 10 pounds. But this last 10 could not be ignored. The pain on my body of caring so much weight, the sleeping issues with a large chest, the depression of thinking I have to get in "big" woman clothes, has completely tore me down.
I have a hard time walking, sleeping, and even sitting with all this weight on my tiny 5 foot frame. I am not brave enough to tell you the weight yet..maybe someday soon- but for now it just makes me cringe!
Babies came at age 19 and 21 - with bed rest and some complications - being pregnant, I really ate whatever I wanted...Mint chocolate chip ice cream was a staple! I went from about 125 to around 205 with delivery of each baby. After the second, I was 22 and I wanted to loose all the baby weight- Tyler my dear husband who was a gym guru, took the time to really teach me to work out - my doctor started me on the drug Fastin, and over a year later I was back down to about 135. I maintained it well, for about 6 months, until I became sick. Tests were started, doctors consulted and lots of medications were prescribed. They assumed I had a auto-immune type illness, and there is one drug that treats almost all auto-immune illnesses, its called Predinsone. Follow this link to know what Prednisone is - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Prednisone
A year later the predinsone had put significant weight gain on me, I remember crying in the doctors office, as they still were just "guessing" my illness and I had gained about 40 pounds due to the medications. I told her how hard I had worked to get all the baby weight off, and now I was putting it back on overnight! She looked at me and said "Well you be heavy and get this under control, or thin and dead." I chose the "fat" option - I was 25 when I was diagnosed with Lupus. I remained on Predinsone every few months to control the worst of my symptoms. Gaining 10 pounds per dose..and never loosing it either.
To loose the weight, I have tried, extreme workouts - low calorie diets - vegan lifestyle - veggie fasts - fruit diets - protein powders - etc. Tyler as a previous gym owner and personal trainer for over 10 years - knew of my struggle. He would give me solstice in saying "not too many people have excuses for their weight that are valiable". Sadly I gave up trying to control my weight and my lupus. Doctors told me it was a vicious cycle, and I would probably be heavy for the rest of my life.
Ignorance is bliss..and the weight went ignored.
I am now 34, I had my last dose of Predisone in February of 2010. Here comes another 10 pounds. But this last 10 could not be ignored. The pain on my body of caring so much weight, the sleeping issues with a large chest, the depression of thinking I have to get in "big" woman clothes, has completely tore me down.
I have a hard time walking, sleeping, and even sitting with all this weight on my tiny 5 foot frame. I am not brave enough to tell you the weight yet..maybe someday soon- but for now it just makes me cringe!
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