Plateau again...
And I did so good this week too! Ugh!
Still holding at the same weight - nothing lost, nothing gained...I hope this week is a better one!
I was thinking about addiction today, and how tortuous it must be for a real food addict to over come their addiction. Don't get me wrong I do love food, but not to that level. As hard as it is for me just to stay away from my 12 grain bread, I can't imagine someone who has never ate healthy, eats to comfort in large quantity's, and has a sincere addiction to food... My heart breaks for them.
And I have to remind myself how lucky I am that I love healthy foods, I remember one time in my life eating for comfort...
My lupus was really bad and I couldn't walk without falling flat on my face, because I couldn't cook, Tyler ordered pizza for us. I normally eat about 2 pieces if I am really hungry. This night I ate my share, and was done..so I thought.
A while later when the pain started again, and I kept falling down trying to get ready for bed, Tyler put me back into bed and he went to get his usual "snack" while we watched TV. I asked him to bring me another piece of pizza, he looked at me like I was crazy! I then demanded it, he told me I didn't need it - I didn't care!! I was in pain, I was falling down and I wanted something to make me feel better!!!
He did bring me the pizza (I am a beast when I get mad) and I ate every bit of it..I did realize at that moment what was going on...and that was the last time it ever happened.
Of course I will cook foods for comfort, cold day - warm potato soup and homemade rolls, Halloween I always make my chili, when we all have colds, chicken noodle soup and fresh rolls..etc. And I don't think that is food addiction..just meals that fit with the day!
This week will be a 5 pound week, I can just feel it!
Skinny dreams to you!!
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Pandora
Pandora link
There is the link for the official website for Pandora!
Also I love this store, because they offer finished bracelets, so I can get ideas from
Pandora Ideas and Charms
And my fat happy Buddha link
Buddha Boy
There is the link for the official website for Pandora!
Also I love this store, because they offer finished bracelets, so I can get ideas from
Pandora Ideas and Charms
And my fat happy Buddha link
Buddha Boy
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| My Queen Bee |
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| Finished Bracelet |
WHOOT WHOOT #35
35 pounds are officially GONE!
11.5 inches are officially GONE!
And yes I am so excited! The last few weeks seemed to drag on to get those few pounds off, to get to my first goal. I have been "tasting" everything, and I know that is why it took so long to get here! I would have a bite of the kids ice cream (they always offer you know) - a bite of a cookie - a bite of a cracker..etc.
Now I feel more motivated than ever - I love the fact I took off 7 years of weight in just a 3 months! It makes me just want ANOTHER salad that much more..lol
I get to buy a charm for my Pandora bracelet - if you don't know what Pandora bracelets I will post a link - they are high quality sliver or gold bracelets that these beautiful tiny hand crafted charms fit on. The average cost for one charm can range from 25.00 to 350.00. Finished bracelets cost anywhere from 1,500 on up.
So obviously I collect them slowly - I got one for my birthday, my starter charm from my momma, then my Kids bought me a "queen bee" for my second charm - this will be my 3 charm and I fell in love with the Fat Buddha!
I love Buddhas, I have 3 in my house and just adore them. And him being so fat, just made me smile!
I have been thinking about posting my before pics, but haven't had the guts to do this yet (As I am in a sports bra, partially hanging out! lol) And having another one taken in the same "gym" outfit...To me my fat has always embarrassed me-I was so skinny growing up, teenage years, I never weighed more than 120 pounds..And in my head I am still little like that, then I see that full length mirror in my closet - I see pictures of me (which I hardly EVER allow) and I ask myself, WHO is that fat chick? OMGosh, she needs to do something! lol
Finally I have done something...that works! So I will thing about the picture idea...some more..think I can minimize it?
11.5 inches are officially GONE!
And yes I am so excited! The last few weeks seemed to drag on to get those few pounds off, to get to my first goal. I have been "tasting" everything, and I know that is why it took so long to get here! I would have a bite of the kids ice cream (they always offer you know) - a bite of a cookie - a bite of a cracker..etc.
Now I feel more motivated than ever - I love the fact I took off 7 years of weight in just a 3 months! It makes me just want ANOTHER salad that much more..lol
I get to buy a charm for my Pandora bracelet - if you don't know what Pandora bracelets I will post a link - they are high quality sliver or gold bracelets that these beautiful tiny hand crafted charms fit on. The average cost for one charm can range from 25.00 to 350.00. Finished bracelets cost anywhere from 1,500 on up.
So obviously I collect them slowly - I got one for my birthday, my starter charm from my momma, then my Kids bought me a "queen bee" for my second charm - this will be my 3 charm and I fell in love with the Fat Buddha!
I love Buddhas, I have 3 in my house and just adore them. And him being so fat, just made me smile!
I have been thinking about posting my before pics, but haven't had the guts to do this yet (As I am in a sports bra, partially hanging out! lol) And having another one taken in the same "gym" outfit...To me my fat has always embarrassed me-I was so skinny growing up, teenage years, I never weighed more than 120 pounds..And in my head I am still little like that, then I see that full length mirror in my closet - I see pictures of me (which I hardly EVER allow) and I ask myself, WHO is that fat chick? OMGosh, she needs to do something! lol
Finally I have done something...that works! So I will thing about the picture idea...some more..think I can minimize it?
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Diet SIN!!!
It seems lately that I have just been obsessed with counting the pounds...I calculate how many weeks I have been on the diet (10) - loss to date 33 pounds, and how many more weeks it will take, and the average loss of each week, minus the PMS week, how much more I have to loose, and how long it will take if I drink more water...and ....and....and! lol UGGH!
It seems at times its all I think about! I guess that is good?? Obsessing over my goal? Yeah kinda!
This week so far I have lost 5 pounds...and that was just in one day! HA! Then good ole reliable Aunt flow stopped by...weight loss haulted...sugar cravings entered....and of course Madi had to make snickerdoodle cookies today..she brought me a bite - and then Tyler gave me a bite (I didn't tell him I already had one) LOL! And he won't know either (he never reads my blog!) Then a while later, the cramps started, and the cookie somehow entered into my mouth! A WHOLE ONE!
I sinned...is there a repentance for dieters? Some type of confessional box that I can sit my fat butt in and confess? Not that I know of...so I just told the world wide web..everyone....knows now that I have sinned and ate a very large soft and surgery cookie....I am trying to rationalize with myself, as worrying I don't have to weigh tomorrow, as its flow week - the craving made me do it - blah blah blah...I still feel guilty!
Now we move on right? I did manager to drink over 90 ounces of water today, that is always good! I feel ok, I have been having some issues with my lupus pain and the central air conditioning in the house..it really makes me hurt! Maybe that 33 pounds of fat was my insulation pre layer that I have lost, and my body is not acclimated to the new climate? LOL! So I have been going outside to sit in the heat for a bit, and my body litterly warms back up and I stop hurting for a bit..I hide in my office as the AC vent is closed in there, and take really hot showers before bed...I am hoping this goes away soon!
skinny dreams to you!
It seems at times its all I think about! I guess that is good?? Obsessing over my goal? Yeah kinda!
This week so far I have lost 5 pounds...and that was just in one day! HA! Then good ole reliable Aunt flow stopped by...weight loss haulted...sugar cravings entered....and of course Madi had to make snickerdoodle cookies today..she brought me a bite - and then Tyler gave me a bite (I didn't tell him I already had one) LOL! And he won't know either (he never reads my blog!) Then a while later, the cramps started, and the cookie somehow entered into my mouth! A WHOLE ONE!
I sinned...is there a repentance for dieters? Some type of confessional box that I can sit my fat butt in and confess? Not that I know of...so I just told the world wide web..everyone....knows now that I have sinned and ate a very large soft and surgery cookie....I am trying to rationalize with myself, as worrying I don't have to weigh tomorrow, as its flow week - the craving made me do it - blah blah blah...I still feel guilty!
Now we move on right? I did manager to drink over 90 ounces of water today, that is always good! I feel ok, I have been having some issues with my lupus pain and the central air conditioning in the house..it really makes me hurt! Maybe that 33 pounds of fat was my insulation pre layer that I have lost, and my body is not acclimated to the new climate? LOL! So I have been going outside to sit in the heat for a bit, and my body litterly warms back up and I stop hurting for a bit..I hide in my office as the AC vent is closed in there, and take really hot showers before bed...I am hoping this goes away soon!
skinny dreams to you!
Monday, August 9, 2010
To my friends who have started the HCG..
I have about 4 friends that have started the HCG diet with me..I wanted to give them a shout out and let them know I am so proud of you!
I know its really hard, especially if you have a family to cook for also - I wanted to give you some advice..
Get out all the junk out of the house-white bread, processed and boxed foods, sugar loaded foods and drinks. If your family is a "carb nut house" like mine is, I buy everything whole grain for them - Ritz crackers, gold fish, pasta, brown rice, and whole grain bread. Never let these things return to your home permanently again, you will go back to your old ways.
Now my family dosen't eat exactly as I do, but similar. We do lots of chicken breasts, lean beef (97% only) Lean cuts of steak (watch the marbling) and working on the seafood... I make big salads, and I don't add dressings to them - they can add their own, fresh fruit salads, steamed veggies, and for grains they are always whole. We use milk products very sparingly (as they are terrible for you anyway), and
everyone is still alive! lol
Madi does love to bake and that really is a test to me, in which I quite often fail, and sneak a bite or two or three. Which is a complete disaster to this diet. Not only does it work with the calories, but the hormone interacts with the chemicals in the foods, that is how it works so well.
I have found that if I don't drink at least 80 ounces of water a day, I don't loose anything...so its so important to keep that water in, its what flushes the fat out..flush flush flush...and let me know when you need more TP from Costco! ha!
Make sure you share your goals, so your accountable for them. You would not believe how many people of the last 12 years of my hubby's career as a personal trainer, would be gym experts and could very well workout on their own with great success, but because they lacked the "accountability" factor they would never do it on their own. And they would rather pay him $550.00 a month to keep them accountable!
Obviously, we did make a good living back then! lol
Treat yourself, I have one cheat meal every 10 pounds..just one meal that I am dying to have! It keeps me motivated to get to the next 10! Make bigger treats too - every 15 or 20 or 30 you can buy a new outfit, shoes, purse, spa day, or what ever your into. Me, I buy myself a charm for my Pandora bracelet..to remind me of all the hard work to get to my goals!
Love yourself...is the most important bit of advice I can give...be happy in your courage to beat the battle of the bulge, know you are learning how to eat for the rest of your life, know you are teaching your children about goals, and eating healthy!! Yeah for you!!!
Much Love to you!
I know its really hard, especially if you have a family to cook for also - I wanted to give you some advice..
Get out all the junk out of the house-white bread, processed and boxed foods, sugar loaded foods and drinks. If your family is a "carb nut house" like mine is, I buy everything whole grain for them - Ritz crackers, gold fish, pasta, brown rice, and whole grain bread. Never let these things return to your home permanently again, you will go back to your old ways.
Now my family dosen't eat exactly as I do, but similar. We do lots of chicken breasts, lean beef (97% only) Lean cuts of steak (watch the marbling) and working on the seafood... I make big salads, and I don't add dressings to them - they can add their own, fresh fruit salads, steamed veggies, and for grains they are always whole. We use milk products very sparingly (as they are terrible for you anyway), and
everyone is still alive! lol
Madi does love to bake and that really is a test to me, in which I quite often fail, and sneak a bite or two or three. Which is a complete disaster to this diet. Not only does it work with the calories, but the hormone interacts with the chemicals in the foods, that is how it works so well.
I have found that if I don't drink at least 80 ounces of water a day, I don't loose anything...so its so important to keep that water in, its what flushes the fat out..flush flush flush...and let me know when you need more TP from Costco! ha!
Make sure you share your goals, so your accountable for them. You would not believe how many people of the last 12 years of my hubby's career as a personal trainer, would be gym experts and could very well workout on their own with great success, but because they lacked the "accountability" factor they would never do it on their own. And they would rather pay him $550.00 a month to keep them accountable!
Obviously, we did make a good living back then! lol
Treat yourself, I have one cheat meal every 10 pounds..just one meal that I am dying to have! It keeps me motivated to get to the next 10! Make bigger treats too - every 15 or 20 or 30 you can buy a new outfit, shoes, purse, spa day, or what ever your into. Me, I buy myself a charm for my Pandora bracelet..to remind me of all the hard work to get to my goals!
Love yourself...is the most important bit of advice I can give...be happy in your courage to beat the battle of the bulge, know you are learning how to eat for the rest of your life, know you are teaching your children about goals, and eating healthy!! Yeah for you!!!
Much Love to you!
Starting over...
Well its been about 2 weeks that I had a break of the diet..I didn't want to, but as funds were tight at the end of the month, I ran out of HCG, protein, coconut oil, and food!
I ate pretty much normal, tried to keep my water up and ate OK..I didn't gain any weight which is good news, because that shows me that when I am finished, I will be able to maintain.
So I had to basically start all over again, I did gorge for 2 days (that was fun) and I gained only 1 pound during those two days. Now I am back on the shots, I bought 6 weeks this time, instead of 4 to keep me a little longer.
I did purchase a neat little thing at the clinic, its liquid steiva extract that is flavored in hazelnut! That is one of my most favorite flavors and I put it in my chocolate protein shake!
I started again on Saturday, and like always the first week is the hardest!
The strangest thing is that while off of the HCG my lupus became very active again..symptoms like joint pain, fatigue, headaches and muscle pain. Things that I haven't felt since before I started the diet.
Yes I was in more stress this time, but I really feel it had a lot to do with the way I was eating, Tyler thinks it was more of the hormone that is putting me into remission. Who knows? I wonder what will happen when I am all finished?
I ate pretty much normal, tried to keep my water up and ate OK..I didn't gain any weight which is good news, because that shows me that when I am finished, I will be able to maintain.
So I had to basically start all over again, I did gorge for 2 days (that was fun) and I gained only 1 pound during those two days. Now I am back on the shots, I bought 6 weeks this time, instead of 4 to keep me a little longer.
I did purchase a neat little thing at the clinic, its liquid steiva extract that is flavored in hazelnut! That is one of my most favorite flavors and I put it in my chocolate protein shake!
I started again on Saturday, and like always the first week is the hardest!
The strangest thing is that while off of the HCG my lupus became very active again..symptoms like joint pain, fatigue, headaches and muscle pain. Things that I haven't felt since before I started the diet.
Yes I was in more stress this time, but I really feel it had a lot to do with the way I was eating, Tyler thinks it was more of the hormone that is putting me into remission. Who knows? I wonder what will happen when I am all finished?
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