Diet SIN!!!

It seems lately that I have just been obsessed with counting the pounds...I calculate how many weeks I have been on the diet  (10)  - loss to date 33 pounds, and how many more weeks it will take, and the average loss of each week, minus the PMS week, how much more I have to loose, and how long it will take if I drink more water...and ....and....and! lol  UGGH!

It seems at times its all I think about!  I guess that is good?? Obsessing over my goal? Yeah kinda!
This week so far I have lost 5 pounds...and that was just in one day! HA! Then good ole reliable Aunt flow stopped by...weight loss haulted...sugar cravings entered....and of course Madi had to make snickerdoodle cookies today..she brought me a bite - and then Tyler gave me a bite (I didn't tell him I already had one) LOL! And he won't know either (he never reads my blog!)  Then a while later, the cramps started, and the cookie somehow entered into my mouth! A WHOLE ONE! 

I sinned...is there a repentance for dieters?  Some type of confessional box that I can sit my fat butt in and confess?  Not that I know of...so I just told the world wide web..everyone....knows now that I have sinned and ate a very large soft and surgery cookie....I am trying to rationalize with myself, as worrying I don't have to weigh tomorrow, as its flow week - the craving made me do it - blah blah blah...I still feel guilty!

Now we move on right?  I did manager to drink over 90 ounces of water today, that is always good!  I feel ok, I have been having some issues with my lupus pain and the central air conditioning in the house..it really makes me hurt!  Maybe that 33 pounds of fat was my insulation pre layer that I have lost, and my body is not acclimated to the new climate? LOL!  So I have been going outside to sit in the heat for a bit, and my body litterly warms back up and I stop hurting for a bit..I hide in my office as the AC vent is closed in there, and take really hot showers before bed...I am hoping this goes away soon!

skinny dreams to you!